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time to stop being a fangirl

First, the requested drabbles! Hope you like them!

The Truth That Hurts
Sam/Ruby
For isthataquestion

Sometimes Ruby tells Sam no.

“No more. You've had enough.”

And his face twists with hunger. “It's never enough.”

She traces his clenched jaw with her finger and says, “I know.”

Later when he presses his body against hers in bed, he asks with his eyes one more time.

Please.

And because she also has a hunger, she hands him the knife.


Disconnected
Dean/Jo
For jenab

Even though Dean promised to call Jo after Duluth, he never did. But she called him. Twice.

The first time was a week before the Hellhounds were sent to come for him. He and Sam were holed up in some motel. Research books stacked up high on the tables. Sam's scribbled notes scattered everywhere. Dean had to get out.

He went to get coffee, but before he made it to the gas station, his cell phone rang. He recognized the number on the screen and let the call go to voicemail.

That night as Sam slept with his head buried in the books, Dean called his voicemail and listened to Jo's message.

“Dean, it's me--Jo.” She let out a heavy sigh. “Listen, whatever you're doing, whatever you have planned, I want to help, so call me when you get this message.”

He waited for her to hang up, but he could still hear her breathing on the other end. She sounded like she was crying.

“Please,” she said. “Just call me.”

Of course, Dean never did.

The second time Jo called it was after he got his ass kicked by Alastair. He left the hospital a little bit more broken. He took a long ride in the Impala by himself. Thoughts flooded his mind. When his cell rang, he almost didn't hear the Metallica song playing. By the time he picked up the phone, the call had gone to voicemail.

One missed call. And again, he knew the number.

Instead of waiting, he listened to the message Jo had left.

“Dean, it's Jo. I'm in Madison, Wisconsin. Some college kids are missing. If you and Sam are nearby, I could use some help. I just thought I'd call and see how you were, you know, coming back from the dead and all.” She chuckles. He smiles. “Anyway, call me. I'll buy you a beer.”

Instead of returning her call, he went to bed thirsty.

Now, Dean paced the tiny hallway in front of Bobby's panic room. Sam's angry cries pounded in Dean's head.

“Go on,” Bobby said. “Get some rest. I'll take this round.”

Slowly, Dean went to the living room and sat on the couch. He removed the items from his pockets, including his cell phone. He stared at the object for a moment before dialing the number he had memorized. He hoped Jo could do what he couldn't--pick up, answer, tell him, “Hello.”

The other line rang, then clicked as a voice came on. “The number you have reached has been disconnected.”


Dreaming My Dreams
Sawyer/Kate
For joans23

Juliet's warm body slept soundly next to Sawyer. He tossed and turned, caught in between the reality of 1977 and the past of 2004. He swallowed salt water as a white light blinded him as a cloud of black smoke smothered him as he stepped over flowers as a baby cried in his arms...

He gave into consciousness and left the bed. Juliet continued to sleep, to dream. She never jerked awake in the middle of the night, never broke out in a cold sweat. Always calm, cool, and collected. Maybe that was he had fallen for her. She put out the fire so that he wouldn't get burned.

In the kitchen, Sawyer poured himself a glass of water. He didn't taste salt.

A hand touched his back. He smiled, thinking Juliet had followed him. When he turned to embrace her, he saw dark curls, freckles, and green eyes.

“Kate,” he gasped.

She smiled and put her hands on his waist. “I've missed you.”

Dreaming. He had to be dreaming still.

But when Kate pressed her lips against his, it felt nothing but real.


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BLOOD OF ME-Heather Nova (S/R)
Big ring around the moon
It's gonna rain hard soon

I know you're gonna leave
It's like a storm inside

You're the blood of me
You're the truth that hurts
You're the memory
You're the drug that works


Why do people change
When hearts, hearts, still beat the same ?

You're the blood of me
You're the truth that hurts
You're the memory, yeah
You're the drug that works

I don't believe you when you tell me
I don't believe you when you hold me
I don't believe you.
You're my medicine
I don't believe you when you fuck me

You're the blood of me
You're the blood of me
You're the truth that hurts
You're the memory, yeah
You're the memory
You're the drug that works

You're the blood of me, yeah
You're the blood of me
You're the truth that hurts, hurts
You're the memory, yeah
You're the memory
You're the drug that works

Big ring around the moon
Gonna rain hard soon

TO DIE FOR-The Birthday Massacre (Sam)
Tighten your tie boy
You’re something to die for
But don’t hold your breath now
You’re just killing time
Tonight you can dream boy
Imagine a whisper
If you can keep secrets
Then I’ll tell you mine.

Remember a promise you couldn’t hold on to
Though it brings me to tears now i need you to know
Look in my eyes boy
Nothing like yours now
It seems that a lifetime
Is passing us by.

So open your eyes...

This is forever but it won’t last long
This is a memory that fades away in neverending
In the death of all that’s long been said and done before,
We’ll wish that we were something more.

Stop wasting time boy
You’re late all your life boy
They won’t have the patience
For someone like you
Your memory’s fading
I’ll love you forever
I’ll try to remember
I’ll try to hold on

You’re standing alone boy
Waiting for dreams boy
Waiting for something
To make them come true
Don’t ever leave boy
I’d miss you too much boy
I’ll never forget you
As long as I’m here


VOW-Garbage (S/R)
I can't use what I can't abuse
And I can't stop when it comes to you
You burned me out but I'm back at your door
Like Joan of Arc coming back for more

I nearly died
I nearly died
I nearly died

I came to cut you up
I came to knock you down
I came around to tear your little world apart

I came to shut you up
I came to drag you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
And break your soul apart

You burn and burn to get under my skin
You've gone too far, now I won't give in
You crucified me but I'm back in your bed
Like Jesus Christ coming back from the dead


I nearly died
I nearly died
I nearly died

I came to knock you up
I came to cut you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
I came to rip you up
I came to shut you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
And break your soul apart

I nearly died
I nearly died
I nearly died

I came to cut you up
I came to knock you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
I came to shut you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
Tear your little world apart
Tear your little world apart
And break your soul apart

I can't stop when it comes to you
I can't stop when it comes to you
When it comes to you
When it comes to you


STRANGELOVE-Depeche Mode (S/R)
Here'll be times
When my crimes
Will seem almost unforgivable
I give in to sin
Because you have to make this life livable
But when you think I've had enough
From your sea of love
I'll take more than another riverful
And I'll make it all worthwhile
I'll make your heart smile

Strangelove
Strange highs and strange lows
Strangelove
That's how my love goes
Strangelove
Will you give it to me
Will you take the pain
I will give to you
Again and again
And will you return it

There'll be days
When I stray
I may appear to be
Constantly out of reach
I give in to sin
Because I like to practice what I preach
I'm not trying to say
I'll have it all my way
I'm always willing to learn
When you've got something to teach

And I'll make it all worthwhile
I'll make your heart smile

Pain will you return it
I'll say it again - pain
Pain will you return it
I won't say it again

I give in
Again and again
I give in
Will you give it to be
I give in
I'll say it again
I give in

I give in
Again and again
I give in
That's how my love goes
I give in
I'll say it again
I give in

AFRAID-Sarah Fimm (Ruby)
I'd like to hold you close
Make you feel safe
Not so afraid of yourself
If we have to part, so it shall be
I'd like to help you suffer less
Not be so locked up in your thoughts
Afraid of love and all under the sun


I'll hide out in your space
Emptiness on my face
I'll be keeping you safe
When you're cold and alone
Til you come out and play

I'd like to know you more,
Tell you you're fine
Even though you're not
When you worry so much
It makes me want to cry
Fragile like the leaves come fall
Red yellow gold, I love them all
I guess it's just the way we love

I'll hide out in your space
Emptiness on my face
I'll be keeping you safe
When you're cold and alone
Til you come out and play

Here I am I don't wanna come out
Null to the bone I don't wanna come out
Here I am I don't wanna come out
Null to the bone I don't wanna come out
I've been dead and I wanna come out
Call my name cause I wanna come out
Here I am and I wanna come out
Null to the bone I don't wanna come out
I've been dead and I wanna come out
Call my name cause I wanna come out

I'll hide out in your space
Emptiness on my face
I'll be keeping you safe
When you're cold and alone
Til you come out and play

Here I am I don't wanna come out
Null to the bone I don't wanna come out
I've been dead and I wanna come out
Call my name cause I wanna come out

I'll hide out in your space
Emptiness on my face
I'll be keeping you safe
When you're cold and alone
Til you come out and play

CHANGES-3 Doors Down (Sam)
I'm not supposed to be scared of anything, but I don't know where I am
I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted and nobody understands (how I feel)
I'm trying hard to breathe now but there's no air in my lungs
There's no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb

I try to hold this under control
They can't help me 'cause no one knows

Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm going through changes, changes

I'm feeling weak and weary walking through this world alone
Everything you say, every word of it, cuts me to the bone
I've got something to say, but now I've got no where to turn
It feels like I've been buried underneath all the weight of the world


I try to hold this under control
They can't help me 'cause no one knows

Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm going through changes, changes

I'm blind and shakin'
Bound and breakin'
I hope I make it through all these changes

Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm falling apart, now I feel it

But I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, I hate this
But I'm going through changes, changes



STITCHES-Orgy (S/R)
If it stayed
I'd never leave it
If that turned around
I'd grieve the special dirty things
That we used to talk about
I mean that loving you is strange
And adored by me throughout,
Oh no it's you again
Someday soon you'll find that someone
Waiting for the chance to beat you
Drooling on the set to feel you,
Blessing you with every kiss


Tying yourself to me
Stitch up my emptiness
'Cause you're the death of me
So precious, loving the thrill
Tying yourself to me
Stitch up my emptiness
'Cause you're the death of me
So precious, loving the thrill


Such the patient one who needs me,
The spoiled one who wins
So shocking where's your sense
Don't you know I hate you so,
Unsatisfied you little girl


Tying yourself to me
Stitch up my emptiness
'Cause you're the death of me
So precious, loving the thrill
Tying yourself to me
Stitch up my emptiness
'Cause you're the death of me
So precious, loving the thrill


Rolling dice and seeming queer,
Bastard love, a sick affair
Let's see what new disease you'll fetch
I mean that fucking you is strange
And adored by me throughout
Oh no it's you again
Blessing you with every kiss



So precious you know
This hate of mine exploded
I'm so deranged you know
I will never be the same


Tying yourself to me
Stitch up my emptiness
'Cause you're the death of me
So precious, loving the thrill
Tying yourself to me
Stitch up my emptiness
'Cause you're the death of me
So precious, loving the thrill


DOWN IN A HOLE-Alice in Chains (Sam)
Bury me softly in this womb
I kept this part of me from you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers
In a tomb... in Bloom

Down in a hole and I don't know
if I can be saved
I sing my heart out decorated
like a grave
You don't understand who they
thought I was supposed to be
Look at me now a man
who won't let himself be

Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, losin' my soul
I'd like to fly,
But my wings have been so denied

Down in a hole and they've put all
The stones in their place
I've eaten the sun so my tongue
Has been burned of the taste
I have been guilty
Of kicking myself in the teeth
I will speak no more
Of my feelings beneath

Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, losin' my soul
I'd like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied


Bury me softly in this womb
Oh I want to be inside of you
I give this part of me for you
Oh I want to be inside of you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers (oh I want to be inside of you)
In a tomb...in bloom
Oh I want to be inside...

Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, losin' my soul
Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, outta control
I'd like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied


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Oh, thank you so much, I love it! And the soundtrack kicks ass!
Your drabbles are cool (I thought the second with Dean and Jo very heart breaking) and I snagged your mix too (it's made of awesome sauce ;) )
The Dean/Jo one is just heartbreaking and I can see it happening if they did bring Jo back to the show. Dean is just being stripped of all he cares for.

Thank you,